My Faith Journey

     My relationship with God started very early in my life. So early that I do not remember how old I was when I started thinking of why I was here, why I was born, what am I supposed to do in life, what a soul is, where it comes from, is the soul me, or separated from me, what happens to me when I die? And many more questions. I was always thinking about the universe and God. As a child (first, second, or third grade), I remember walking to school alone, lost in my thoughts. As I walked, I remember closing my eyes and walking with my face toward the sky (to make it more challenging, I guess). As I walked, I thought to myself all these questions that I kept to myself. I kept them to myself, not because I didn’t think I could not get an answer from my family, but because I was regarded as a good but wired kid, very skinny. I was skinny to the point that I made my family worried that I would be sick. In a nutshell, this is who I was as a child, trying to understand life. Everything else was secondary to me. My questions about life and God were mostly everything.
My spiritual education started at home, mostly coming from my Grandmother. May God keep her soul. She taught us all about Roman Christianity, but when it came to prayer, I noticed many years later that we prayed to the Father, head of the triad head religion, that is, Christianity. Time passed, and my family thought it was time for us (me and my cousins) to go to catechism school (as a good Christian family would do). There, I learned many new things, raising many more questions on top of questions already flooding my mind. For example, one of the Ten Commandments is not to be an idolater, so why do the churches have so many idols? They have them everywhere! Another question was, why can’t priests not marry when the sons of Haaron did have families? Genesis says for man to be fruitful and multiply, it is the first commandment given to man by God. Another one was, why go to church and rest on Sunday when it should be on Saturday as the Bible says, (keep Saturday the seventh day for it is Holy and it is one of the Ten Commandments). But enough of that for now. All these questions put doubts in my faith in the church, so I left it.
     Time passed, and without the church and no internet yet, I kept reading the Bible (three in English and one in Spanish, all different translations), and as I read, I had more questions. Why did Mary and Jesus’s brothers regard him as crazy that they had to get him from the crowd? (Matthew 13:53- 56). Didn’t they know that this is why he came to the world? And Why did he heal on Saturday if it is prohibited to do work on Saturday according to the Ten Commandments? Why was he supposed to be named Emanuel, according to Matthew 1:21- 22, but he never was? Why must his first miracle be to make wine of all things? Why would Jesus kill a tree for giving sour fruit? This seems like man's emotions, not godly ones. I could go on forever. As I read the New Testament, I kept having troubling thoughts of Jesus himself, and I could not take it, not about Jesus; he was supposed to be god. So, I quit reading the Bible as well……..
     More time passed, and I did not read any more Bibles for a long time. I just prayed to the Father God Head, of Christianity. But as more time passed, I felt the strong need to read the Bible again, but this time, I was older, and the internet existed now. So, I researched many religions, foreign gods, and beliefs, and I came to find Judaism. See, when I was in Christianity, I was in a spiritual bubble that I never ventured outside of, and when I read about Judaism and looked up videos about the God of Israel, as I read and watched, I came to know for sure, (and there was, and still is not, a doubt in my mind, or heart), that the God of the Jews is the real God, and outside of Him there is no other God. The God of the Jews is only One, not three in any capacity. And for some reason, as I think back, I always knew it. That is why I left the church and its idols, that is why I had misgivings about Jesus, and that is why I only prayed to the Father God Head. My spirit knew it and guided me, so I chose to be on this road, trying to stay on God’s path. Because now.,,,,

I walk with the ONE GOD, and He is our Creator.

Our Creator God Says:

Deuteronomy 6:4
”Hear, O Yisrael, Y-H-V-H is our God, Y-H-V-H is ONE.”

Isaiah 46:9
“Remember the former things of old; for I am God, and there is no other; I am God, and there is none like me,”

Isaiah 43:10-11
”My witnesses are you —declares Y-H-V-H— My servant, whom I have chosen. To the end that you may know, And believe in Me, And understand that I am He: Before Me, no god was formed, And after Me, none shall exist, none but Me, Y-H-V-H; Besides Me, there is no savior.”

Deuteronomy 4:39
”know therefore today, and lay it to your heart, that Y-H-V-H alone is God in heaven above and on earth below; there is no other.”

Isaiah 48:12
“Listen to me, O Jacob, and Yisrael, whom I called! I am He; I am the first, and I am the last.”

Hosea 13:4

“And I Y-H-V-H have been your God Ever since the land of Egypt; You have never known a [true] God but Me, You have never had a helper other than Me.”

Joel 2:27

“And you shall know That I am in the midst of Yisrael: That I, Y-H-V-H, your God, and there is no other. And My people shall be shamed no more.”

Isaiah 45:21-22
“…who told this long ago? Who declared it from the distant past? Was it not I, Y-H-V-H? And there is no other god besides me, a righteous God and a Savior; there is none besides me. “Turn to me and be saved, all the ends of the earth! For I am God, and there is no other.

Deuteronomy 4:35
”You were shown these things so that you will know that Y-H-V-H is God; besides Him, there is no other.”

Isaiah 45:5-6
”I Am Y-H-V-H, and there is no other; besides Me, there is no god... I will strengthen you...
In order that they know from the shining of the sun and from the west that there is no one besides Me; I am Y-H-V-H, and there is no other!"

Deuteronomy 32:39
"See, then, that I, I am He; There is no god beside Me. I deal death and give life; I wound, and I heal: None can deliver from My hand."

Numbers 23:19
”God is not a man, that He should lie, Nor a son of man, that He should change His mind; Has He said, and will He not do it? Or has He spoken, and will He not make it good?”

Deuteronomy 4:15
”For your own sake, therefore, be most careful—since you saw no shape when Y-H-V-H your God spoke to you at Horeb out of the fire.”

I have always looked for ways to help me with my Bible studies, a way to keep it easy to read and a way to read it that is better understood, (for both me and whoever wanted to learn). I have tried everything on my PC, on an Android phone, on an iPhone, and also on my iPad Pro. There were always drawbacks, but mostly, the ultimate failure was a delivery system that kept the message consistent. I have always thought of starting a website but that seemed costly to me, but what the heck. Let’s give it a go.

Born July 24th, 1972